黑白琴键，演绎人生

    从小我就不愿意碌碌无为。虽然父母说我自打上了高中之后就不好好用功读书，但我那颗拒绝平庸的心依旧在热烈地燃烧。
    刚进人大时的我一直心生胆怯，担心自己将无法抵御来自全国各地高考牛人的冲击，害怕自己被惊涛骇浪蹂躏得尸骨无存。然而事情并没有想像中的夸张。渐渐地，我找回了自我，建立起比以前更加强烈的自信，因为我找回了属于自己的那块具有强烈排他性的领地。当然，我羡慕上海辩论男伶俐的口才，感叹上虞才子深厚的国学功底，也艳羡张家口全国一等奖级别的数学头脑。我为我能拥有他们作为大学同学感到骄傲，但不嫉妒他们。
    我就是我。从小老师夸我这孩子踏实，但父母却总说我毛躁。其实，我都不是。见到喜欢的事情，我那根专注的神经会时刻紧绷，以至废寝忘食，夜以继日。
    之前，我以为自己的追梦之心已死，人生之溪不久之后将随千万条河流一起汇入平庸的大海。不过现在，我发现自己又可以专注地做感兴趣且有意义的事情了。我的心，静谧，安宁，却充满活力。我兴奋不已，以至狂然。让那些我不能够控制的烦心事见鬼去吧，我现在能做的就是享受眼前这种忙碌的快乐。
    昨天上午，借了老蒋的会员卡，只身前往仰慕依旧的国家图书馆。国图的老馆很安静，以至走在楼道中也安静得可以清晰地听到自己的脚步声。早知道是这样，就应该换双摩擦力稍微小一点的鞋子。国图老馆内是典型改革开放初期的建筑风格，古朴，大方。印象最深的就是躺在墙根下面的深红色海绵皮椅。这使我感觉自己进入了七八十年代的电影中，仿佛看到了那些戴着粗框瓶底厚眼镜的老学术工作者们正捧着略带茶渍的文献认真地阅读。我走进了年鉴阅览室，虽然屋子只可以容纳20人，但是因为是平时，人不多。负责借书的老师很和蔼，很好。拿到了4本《中国文化文物统计年鉴》后，我坐在被安排好的位置上，又是老椅子，浅灰色的布料，绝算不上舒适，但我很喜欢。查完资料后，已然中午11点半了，之前本想参观一下，音乐厅北侧的豪华的新管，但是因为时间不允许没去成。初进国图的感觉很赞，不仅仅因为自己得到了搜遍网络数据库不得一见的年鉴数据，更重要的是，我找到了一个沐浴灵魂的地方，在这里我可以什么都不想。想当初我国西方经济学奠基人高鸿业老先生在世时，即便晚年病魔缠身，依然坚持一周去一次国图，我想，这就是国图的魅力。
    PS,人大的创新杯论文得了个小奖,卢卢也获奖了.老妈貌似对儿子的小奖还挺兴奋,但其实真不值得怎么庆祝,因为现在再看自己的文章真的好烂...希望能在两周之内做出比较好的面板数据计量结果.加油！不过在STATA之前,还有几千个数据要录入...看来周末打不了麻将了...

老头与我谈论草泥马之歌（Grass-mud horse)(Youtube, 2009），随即问我关于言论自由的看法。出于民族性爱国主义，我还是义无反顾地捍卫了我国政府的尊严，虽然感觉说的有点假~~~。

I do not agree with the statement that China should immediately let the expression free in the public, but I approve of the evolution to freedom incrementally.

 

True, allowing the free expression in public has great merits, which has been substantiated in a number of western countries. However, it is hasty to draw the conclusion that free expression revolution is a wise decision, because analyzing Chinese issues by using the existing western democracy paradigm without considering the differences of culture and history paths is not appropriate to some extent.

 

From the historical point of view, traditional Chinese empires had governments of monopoly with no except. The concept of dictatorship is deeply rooted in Chinese people's mind. Since the chaos spawned by people who are given much more freedom will hurt the government's authority, the government prefer to use the authorial tools to keep the society stable just like the situation in ancient China.

 

From the cultural point of view, as for the word "Harmony", people have been largely influenced by the thought of Kongfuzi, the greatest philosopher in ancient China. People have been pursuing harmony of soul and society, which is somewhat the same as Plato's philosophy. So the word "harmonize" I believe is not a word used by government in order to protect its authority, though some western and Chinese critics think so.

 

But I, as well as the government, do agree with the importance of free expression. Reform really counts. Monopoly of power may be relatively efficient in the period of time when setting up a country, yet with the development of the nation, rational evolution of power distribution is of necessity. It is known to all that great changes have taken place in the structure of Chinese enterprise -- government strongly encourages and supports the growth of private companies nowadays, while in the past the majority of support and institution are only good to the nation-owned enterprises. Analogically, incremental reform of politics is proceeding too. I believe before long Chinese people will enjoy much more freedom of expression in public. Please give China enough time.

哎~~~假的厉害~~

收张老师之托,他要我帮他补齐专辑里空余的部分.

于是我拿到了10余首法国小曲.

虽然谱面都很EASY,

但是能拉出味道可就不容易了.

 

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